giddy...

couldn't think of something interesting to blog today...well, it's the bad weather that keeps me giddy these days... i've never been good at giving advice...unsolicited advice...most especially when it comes to love, simply because i'm a failure...but whenever i think of this good friend of mine, i can't help but wander...why does true love comes at the wrong place and at the wrong time... let's just call him phoenix...we've known each other for quite some time now but he never, ever told me anythin' about his life...he's more of a reclusive type...much more reserved than i was... then, he had the courage to tell me everything...he needed someone to pour out his emotions, i believe so.... phoenix married at quite an early age when he got his girl pregnant... the marriage was consummated, they have lived in the same roof for more than two years...(though his wife never knew that he had an affair with a married woman just months after she gave birth...) it happened so fast that they weren't able to know each other quite well. just like any other couples, they've had some disagreements, they fought and they just drifted apart. the girl went back to her parents house but technically speaking, they're still together... then he left to work abroad...and met this girl that he had been dreaming of. the girl had no idea that he was already married. my friends fault, he made her believe that he's still single, unattached and he's not committed. then, they fell inlove... talking about deceit here huh... now my friend is facing a very big problem!!! he's no longer inlove with his wife, as what he always claims...he wants to pursue the girl but he simply can't...he's not yet separated from his wife...they barely talk...he just sends money for their child and his parents visit his son as often as they can.... few months back, out of guilt, he was able to tell the girl everything that she has to know...she had a hard time dealing with it, even lost the baby courtesy of my friend....but good thing, they're still together...having a hard time saving the relationship but i guess, it's worth the risk....who cares though??? they love each other so much and i am in no position to judge them... now, my friend's considering annulment to marry the girl he truly loves...it's as if the whole annulment proceedings would be as easy as 1-2-3... too late i guess...so sad for the girl...i wonder how she feels...the guy whom she have loved so much can't even give her what all women would ever wish for...and that is to get married... now, if i were in my friends' shoes, i will forever blame myself... i pity the girl, not the wife...true love exists and she held my friend a prisoner just because she conceived his baby...how sad.... right from the very beginning, i don't approve of marriages due to unwanted pregnancies...yeah, no one's an accident...God planned our existence right before we were conceived but talking about marriage? well, it's a lifetime commitment and before getting married, one has to consider a lot of factors... well, i don't even know why i'm talking about marriage here...