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hindi ko na nagugustuhan yung pagkakaroon ko ng namesake sa friendster... kung marami kayong magkapangalan, okay lang pero kung dadalawa lang kayo, hassle to the highest level... -0-O-0- p.s. dahil na rin po sa namesake kong ito, iniba ko ang first name ko sa friendster...firstname lang naman...same surname... p.s.1 and so i thought i had the most unique name in the whole wide world...

everything seems boring... my job for almost a decade, boring... my cubicle, boring... my social life, boring... my outfit, boring... i want to scream at the top of my lungs!!! I NEED A BREAK!!!

my sim's BLOCKED !!! yes, i'm damn stupid and i entered my PIN incorrectly for three consecutive times... now, i'm using a new number...just email me for my new number...

couldn't think of something interesting to blog today...well, it's the bad weather that keeps me giddy these days... i've never been good at giving advice...unsolicited advice...most especially when it comes to love, simply because i'm a failure...but whenever i think of this good friend of mine, i can't help but wander...why does true love comes at the wrong place and at the wrong time... let's just call him phoenix...we've known each other for quite some time now but he never, ever told me anythin' about his life...he's more of a reclusive type...much more reserved than i was... then, he had the courage to tell me everything...he needed someone to pour out his emotions, i believe so.... phoenix married at quite an early age when he got his girl pregnant... the marriage was consummated, they have lived in the same roof for more than two years...(though his wife never knew that he had an affair with a married woman just months after she gave birt...

have you ever been in a situation wherein you think that he's everything that matters? that he's your life and you can't live without him? but sad truth is, he was never yours to begin with...he can't commit to you because he's already committed.. will you let go or will you fight for your love??? don't you think letting go is the easiest way out? but will you or would you rather not??? what will you choose... choosing what is right but you know that it won't make you happy or choosing what you know is wrong but you certainly know that it'll make you happy? the decision is yours to make...make a stand...and face the consequences!

staying single wasn't merely a choice...it's destiny, i guess... i've fallen in and out of love, gone through so much pain in the past but it didn't stop me from hoping...hoping that someday i'll be able to walk down the aisle and marry the only person who loves me completely and the one my heart desires...besides, its my childhood dream...to get married, to have kids, to grow old with someone who would accept you for what you are and not for the person who he wants you to become? for almost thirty years of existence, i think it's high time to give up that dream...loving myself and serving God is my purpose in life...and settling down? only God knows when it's bound to happen....and as i have always told the people around me, i'm no longer expecting that to happen...why dwell on the things that i don't have? when all i have to do is to be thankful for all the blessings that God has given me???being single doesn't make me less of a person, i kno...

rants... raves... whatelse???

if there's a lot of people who can't fit to their busy schedule, there's still one heck of an insignificant naive creature who still doesn't have anything to do with her life! REGRETS.... last month, my two highschool friends e-mailed me to join them on two different hikes...coincidence or what? well at least, they're joining different groups!!! one's at pico de loro and the other one's at mt. daguldol...hiking is not really my thing but i always want to try different things...and hiking sounds fun, don't you think??? i didn't join either of the hikes not because it doesn't interest me at all.but i didn't join cause of my nasal infection...had antibiotics and had to take a lot of rest during the long weekend... i got sick and missed half of my life not being able to join either of the hikes that my friends told me about....don't you think life sucks sometimes???i was extremely well last saturday and sunday but i have nothing much to d...

not really my first time blogging... it's just that i can't find a better place to write down my rants about my daily living.... but finally, one thing that i can assure you of...this is going to be my only place in cyber.... no multiply, no shelfari, no facebook...only blogspot !!!!