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Eight years and I can still feel the pain. I'd have to say that I have already moved on with my life but just getting used to the pain. I just didn't lose a mother but a best friend. She was there whenever I needed someone to hold on to. She witnessed a lot of heartaches that I have been through. She was also there when I was so optimistic about my relationships. She was always there whenever I am in love. Too bad, when I got pregnant, I had no one by my side. Few relatives helped me out but I was still longing for a mother at that time. I needed her by my side. But as she would always say, I am strong. Am I? *ingzee*

Isn't  it obvious, A.R. will always be, and forever will be the one that got away.   I don't know but I just thought about him the other day. Maybe because I chanced upon his letters to me, his videos, his pictures.  He was so close to perfect. I will always have nice words for him even if he broke my heart. I just thought to myself, what if we ended up together? But on second thought, It would be impossible for me to end up with him. I am so immature and stubborn. He doesn't deserve me. He might be my soulmate, apparently, he was, he is and he will always be. Soulmates don't end up with each other, as they say. They have this connection  but it doesn't mean that they are meant to be. Maybe, in the next lifetime, we will meet again.  I'm still hopeful that after everything that I have been through in this lifetime, I still deserve to be happy.  Fingers crossed. *ingzee*